You're fast asleep, well I hope so. I know sometimes long after I put you to bed you stay up thinking just like me. I wish I could help your little mind rest, but I understand your life can be worrisome for you at times. Like tonight, if you're worried about anything it's the fact that tomorrow you start your first ever "Physical Therapy Intensive" program.
You're therapist feel you are the perfect candidate. Lindsey I believe was the first to bring it up, or maybe it was Cheryl. Either way, they feel it's time to try something new to help you.
You've come a long way, so many people can't even see just how long it's been. But you & Papa Dios know and that's what counts. You more than anyone my sweet girl know how much you've had to climb to get to the peak you are at today. But there are many more mountains to conquer and so here we are the eve before a grueling three weeks to come.
I've downplayed the intensity of this because well you're 7 & I can't scare you right? But of course you all on your own feel it. Today you told me you don't know if you can do it and I told you the truth, this I did not downplay because I know you are a warrior! You CAN DO THIS! You WILL DO THIS! And I will be cheering you on every step of the way. I know it won't be easy baby, but nothing you have had to conquer has been and yet look at you still a shining bright star! You smile so much it's inspiring, really inspiring.
I hope you don't cry, they say a lot of kids cry & give up by the second week. It's not easy 2 straight hours of intense physical therapy everyday of the week M-Th for three weeks straight. Going from 1 hour twice a week to this will definitely be quite the change, that's why I chose to wait until summer so you wouldn't have to do this after school since you are usually already exhausted by that time. I also chose to do it at the beginning of the summer, so hopefully we can relax the rest of the summer like every typical child gets to. You deserve that, I want that for you! I know you tell me quite often you just want to not have anymore therapies, I'm trying baby to get you to that point. You started at 7 months old & here you are 7 years old. I'm not going to downplay the fact my heart is extra heavy for you tonight, so heavy, I wish I could trade places with you! I'm so sorry that I can't. I know you though, you won't give up & you probably won't even cry because you don't like to let others see you weak or sad. But can I tell you something gordi, please don't go through life hiding these normal feelings. It gets heavy, take it from mommy. Please let others see your pain, your tears, your fears, all those are feelings that are also healthy. Validate them, I will be there these next three weeks (well for the rest of your life really) but especially these next weeks to validate them when they do come.
The beautiful thing about life is that you can feel all these feelings and still find peaceful & joyful moments to carry you through. You are my peace & joy that carries me through many things you don't even realize just how many. Thank you for that.
My prayer for you today is that you wake up tomorrow ready to move mountains. That you know that God is with you every step of the way, I can see him now just standing right beside you giving you wind beneath your wings. He always has, I know it's him that has helped you all along. You know that song that we listen to a lot since the Hillsong concert we went to for Mother's Day weekend, "Another in the Fire" well I know that Jesus is with you in your fire standing next to you just like the song says. Another in the waters holding back the seas, it's him in spirit. And essentially I am here for you baby.....in the fires & in the waters I will hold back all the seas for as long as I have air in my lungs & a heartbeat. I will never stop being your life partner, I'm your mommy today, tomorrow, & forever. I will never let a fire burn you or a water drown you. You my darling will never feel alone as long as I have life on this earth! Even when I go home to our Heavenly Father, I will be with you to ensure you never feel alone. I love you, I'm with you, & we got this!
I can see the light in the darkness! I'm going to pray so fervently that at the end of this program you will be stronger, you will walk longer, we will say goodbye to that wheelchair, I will not have to shop for an electric wheelchair, you will climb stairs without holding onto anything, you will get on/off a toilet without holding on, you will stand up without hands on the ground, you will jump, you will run, you will ride a bike, you will swim, you will feel less pain, you will you will you will YOU WILL!
REMEMBER YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE, NEVER EVER FORGET THAT!
Today in church you told me you were so proud to be my daughter, no baby you have it all wrong. I'm the proud & lucky one! Well I guess you're right we are both lucky to have found each other because our love & compassion for each other goes beyond the highest peak of mountains on this earth. YOU'VE BEYOND MADE ME PROUD TO BE YOUR MOMMY! And I will NEVER you hear me EVER stop making you proud to be my daughter!
Tomorrow's another new day for God to reveal his glory here on earth, you will continue to be his testament (I just got confirmation goosebumps & tears) with God on your side baby you will need nothing else, you are his child. Keep loving him & trusting him. We love you eternally.
All your angels Grammy, Abue, Capu, Abuelita Chicquita, Mama Negrita, Bella, SuperJuls, & all those who have watched over you that we may not even know....have come to you united tonight. They will be flying over you together for this program. They got you too! You see how loved you are my baby? You really are!
Goodnight, sweet dreams only, God Bless you! See you in the morning Warrior!
PS. Wait until you see the shirts Tia Jessica made for us they say "Mighty Warrior Judges 6:12"
So you know that scripture reads as follows: “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.”
Tia also made you a special cup which we will take for water breaks & it reads as follows:
"She believed she could, so she did" (Front) & "Brave, CP Warrior, Sophia" (Back)
Mommy got you the Batman bandana you wanted. So you got your warrior gear ready for Day 1. Can't wait to see you dressed & ready to go move mountains!
Our song "Another in the Fire"=Hillsong United
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmNc0L7Ac5c
