Smiling at Mommy, 10.20.11

By day 8 little peanut was off the Cpap and breathing on her own!!! I'm so proud of her for being so strong, now if only mommy can have her strength.  This is not easy having my baby in NICU! Not being able to bring her home kills me.....everyday....every minute I yearn to be with her!! Anyone who hasn't lived this experience can never understand or relate!! Being exhausted mentally (Not to mention physically trying to recuperate from c-section & dealing with high blood pressure), overwhelmed, sad, worried, and all these mixed feelings is no walk in the park......but when I saw my baby smile for the first time...it just made life easy that day!!! Sophia smiled at me and it's almost as if she was saying "I'm going to be fine mommy, just relax!!"...I love you for that Gorda!!! Your my little angel!!! I hope you will always smile in life through all it's ups & downs my love...just keep SMILING!!! I will always do my best to keep you happy, so smiling can be easier!!