Thanksgiving!!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving..I apologize to all my family & friends that I may have not seen or called to say Happy Thanksgiving but everyone is always in my heart & well wishes!! Unfortunately for me Happy wasn't really my mood for most of the day, I know it is a day to be thankful & happy but I must say as much as I tried it just didn't feel complete for me with my gorda not being by my side all day on her First Thanksgiving.  I tried to go to the hospital as much as possible in between visits to family homes......Daddy & I went to see her in the morning & dressed her for the first time in a little outfit she looked perfect (she can finally wear clothes)!!! I haven't been able to find much preemie clothes but did manage to find some bodysuits..they are actually big on her lol.  Having to leave her there alone in the hospital in the morning was real sad for me...to be honest I really could careless about going to anyone's house I just wanted to carry my baby...but of course we love our family & had to have our Thanksgiving meals.  After we finished eating at daddy's families house I couldn't bear no more...I had to escape back to the hospital for a quick visit before my moms dinner.  I can't explain how much I just longed to be with my Gorda don't get me wrong I was grateful that she is doing well but I just want her well enough to be in my arms at home.  Seeing everyone at the tables with their kids & family I felt incomplete.....our baby should be with us at the table you know....but anyway I managed to get through the day with a few crying moments.  At the end of it once we finished at my moms....daddy & I went to the hospital and FINALLYYYY got to have some kangaroo time!!!! OHHHH & we graduated to NICU 2, yes the baby has graduated from Level 3 Nicu to level 2.....so if you go visit she is no longer in Level 3 Room 6 she has been transferred. This is a positive it means she was healthy enough to transfer, but daddy & I weren't too happy because it means no more private room now it is all the NICU 2 level babies in one big open space room literally like side by side.  Either way we are looking at the bright side if she wasn't healthy enough she wouldn't have been transferred!! 
P.S. I pray to God I don't have to spend another holiday like this one, I can't do Christmas without my Gorda next to me...no one understands how I feel seeing her in that little isolate all alone especially on holidays when everyone is with their loved ones!!! Please God I can't bear another holiday without my Gorda, bring her home by Christmas Eve....!!!